Futher to my post on forgiving myself....

The only answer I can see to the question is to lay myself before God and to ask Him to help me. I also don't think it is going to be something that I do once and then sit back and live a happier life - it will be something that I will have to ask God to help me with every day, and at the start I would guess every minute. It will have to be an act of will to wish God's grace for those who have wronged me (i include myself in this rather bizzarely) and then hopefully it will, in time, become a subconscious will.

The road to forgiveness will be a long and challenging one but it is one that I hope to travel so that I can live the life that I believe God wants for me.